At any moment you have a choice,
That either leads you closer to your spirit
Or further away from it.
– Thich Nhat Hahn
About a year ago, I went to a yoga class and the teacher had us look around the room behind us to find things that were orange.
And after we had studied our surroundings for orange stuff, she asked us instead to name things we had seen that were green.
And while we had seen plenty of orange, none of us could name a single thing that was green.
It was a simple exercise.
But it left me somewhat dazzled by the power of intention.
Of how we find – how we see – what we are looking for …
And how, if we are not careful, we can miss the rest …
We hadn’t seen each other in a while and so were getting together for dinner.
“You know,” he said. “As I was getting ready to meet you tonight, I thought to myself, ‘I love her! I just love her!’ And so I wanted to tell you that. I love you.“
“Oh my gosh!” I said, taking his hands across the table. “You’re so sweet! Thank you. What a lovely thing to hear.”
And we sat like that for a while, holding hands across the table, his declaration of love hanging in the air between us.
I breathed in his love for me and let it settle inside.
It was a complete moment.
Needing nothing further from either of us.
It had been an emotionally exhausting day.
The world had felt a little dimmer.
So I went for a walk alone in the moonlight.
I need a sign, I thought to myself. A sign that I am on the right path.
Just then I looked in the sky.
And saw a shooting star.
I lay back on the sidewalk to breathe in the sky.
And cupped the narcissus that surprised me in the dark.
And breathed its rich perfume down deeply.
A complete moment.
He was standing quietly, studying the photos on the refrigerator door.
“I love that picture of you, Mama,” he said. “You look so happy with your mouth open. And you can just see the sparkles in your eyes … “
A moment of being seen.
A moment of love.